Aesthetic 3xperience
Virtual Notebook

the above drawing was for my hauntograph 4th space assignment

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Sky Gooden's story sticks with me - she tells her stories with natural romanticism - everything feels so picturesque and warm. when she describes her meal with her friend, the bike ride home, the market and her boyfriend, everything feels so satisfying and full of love! her story was so lovely because it was so mundane... It felt like I have had this experience someplace in my life (the sense of deja vu). I felt a form of nostalgia when I had heard her story, which was odd considering I've never had that sequence of events :) I suppose that's what makes a good story teller.

Side Thoughts I Recorded

"Last night I went to a French poetry session - a performance! I heard so much French and could only understand very little, but it was so beautiful! It was in an old convent on Beaubien - I had looked at an apartment there the other day, so maybe it's a sign that I'll get it!

Side Note to the Side Thoughts
I did not get the apartment.

Phrases that stuck with me from Sky Gooden's Video
"she can cooke a Venetian chicken like you wouldn't believe."
"shadowy dollhouse"
"sense of trust baked into that experience"
"beautiful dinner - wind in my earrings"
"a life streaked with loss"
"a small something for me but a big thing living inside him"
"take some of this into your heart"
"wander through that space"
"figures have streamed away"
"moved through the internal guts of the market"

sketch of my cat

Think of a Liminal Space in which you have lingered or transitioned during your lifetime?
Last year was extremely hard for me mentally. I think being in such a dark & anxious state really impacted me and forced me to sit with myself in solitude and isolation. This anxiety caused me to face myself and really decide was I need(ed) and want(ed) out of life. I'm still affected by anxiety but I have made vast improvements and been able to transition into a new chapter. Everything is learning.

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Notebook Entry .4

the following are FreeWrite responses to Notebook 3ntry .4

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more thoughts about the word + connotations of 'provocative'
I think being provocative is sort of something that is frowned upon in society. people in power don't want you to disrupt or think critically about your life and purpose, but we need to! being provocative is seen as a negative but in reality you need to be provocative in order to discover more about yourself and the world. you have to ask the difficult questions and face hardships in order to reach clarity and self-realization.

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zoom in of a soup

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After hearing everyone's story, I couldn't help but feel so happy :D Everyone's story was about love, so I guess I chose a hopelessly romantic topic, but it made me feel so happy to be human. I related to a few of the stories, particularly ones about fate/chance, but also the story about self love + acceptance with the help of d r u g s (oops!).

I think it's always great to listen to other's and connect this way through little excerpts, because you recognize how similar you are to one another. It's actually pretty easy to make friends if you just choose to talk about a small fragment of your life.

I really liked this class session, it was also interesting to have peers messaging me about my experience! I definitely felt nervous sharing my story and recording it, but I hope I was able to connect to others through the video.

I never knew my mother's mother, she died when my mum was 5. I never saw many photographs of her until I was much older, and so I can only imagine parts of her and from what I knew about women at the time (in the 1960s). I have a fragmented understanding of her and I don't know her voice or her personality.
I think my mum knows very little so we are both at a loss. I know my mum loves her very much but we are both unsure of who she really was.
No one in my mother's life really knew her well, aside from one woman we just recently reconnected with... She had dementia though, and sadly passed away about a month ago.
It's not to say my grandmother didn't exist, but we all can only live on if other's remember us. Even though she is only two generations away from me, it's sad to think that she only exists in these fragmented photographs tucked away in some book. I wonder if I will ever know more about her.